I'm in one of those moods, where I would willingly kill you all and hope for a death sentence. Or go to jail for it, so people can beat me everyday and I'll have a justifiable reason to kill myself. Holiday really didn't do me any good. I visibly lost weight but not according to my actual weight? So no more eating anything except a weighed out breakfast and a small thing for dinner + more exercise. Hosptial appt. is this Friday. I'm not hoping for anything good to come of it. I've discovered the whole "I don't deserve to be happy" complex I have is a bit of an understatement. They'll probably just put me on something that'll make me even uglier lmao or probably tell me there's nothing they can do like last time.
song: DC / Tokyo Teddy Bears
manga: too many oneshots to list
anime: mononoke ep 9 - 12