At what point should I tell my counselor the truth? And how does one tell the truth? I can actually feel the tiny bit of self control I do have, slipping away and my brain deteriorating. Whenever I like sit down with her though, my brain just decides everythings okay and everything I wanted to say doesn't matter anymore. This kind of sucks. Everyone is purposely trying to piss me off I swear. I give up on you all I really do. Also it's like a week to DROOG's new album is released. I hope it ships fast because I'm so excited. CDJapan gave me b'day points and loads of other points so in total the album cost me £6. I love you CDJapan.
song: RENTRER EN SOI / I was damnedread more tw: self harm and I like to take photos
manga: あかないとびら by 鈴木ツタ
potd: http://www.pixiv.net/member_illust.php?mode=manga&illust_id=27131423
I honestly haven't self harmed out of anger in ages, it's usually boredom (I like blood and scars so sometimes self harm isn't self harm it's just me being a masochist). I actually think it's better I do it when I'm angry, since it soothes the anger quite quickly, meaning I don't get carried away and end up slicing my entire arm up. I should probably start letting my arm heal properly. Poor thing.
